My own little corner...

I told myself I'd turn over a new leaf once I started grad school. I'd read all of my assignments fully. I'd do the homework ahead of class. I wouldn't procrastinate on my papers. So far, I'm doing pretty well, except for the paper part. I'd rather not worry about that part. It's not even a difficult paper... I guess I just have this mental block about it. I worried that my work won't be good enough. I worried that once I write it, I'm officially in this thing. I'm officially accepting that I'm going to miss out on the other things. But I am missing out on those things. It's a reality. So I must write the paper. (Don't worry, I haven't procrastinated that much yet. Tomorrow morning I can maybe redeem myself... maybe.)

I think I'll start to get more into the swing of everything come Sunday. Tomorrow night I'm going out to camp for a while. I know I'll probably miss some things going on with my cohort, but I really feel like it's something I need to do. I just miss it. I haven't been there since February, and everything about this time of year makes me think about it. It will be a nice bit of closure until I can visit again. Then on Sunday we have a mini-retreat. Everyone in the program will finally be here (we've been missing the second and third years for two weeks now.) We won't have any more days off (they've been nice, but I find it hard to force myself to socialize when I meet people... I need the forced togetherness at first.) Monday we start a new class that goes every afternoon for three weeks. Also during those three weeks the first years will be aiding at a Jesuit middle school for boys every other day. We'll have community dinners every week night and a spirituality class two nights a week. It will be busy, but I think I need busy right now. I need something that draws me in completely so I stop worrying about everything else.

Saint Jude - Pray for me.